"Yeah, we'll have 3 under three in February."
"Yes, we know how this happens..."
"No, not a single one of them is an accident according to God's plan."
"No we aren't crazy, although we feel like it most days."
These are things I find myself saying aloud, both to people we know or complete strangers. I also often find myself thinking things like, This isn't a muffin top, there is a bun in the oven, as I struggle with being the biggest weight I have ever been in my life.
Hubby and I spend a lot of time feeling like zombies and counting down the hours to bed time as we get through each day with a goal of surviving. Of course that's an exaggeration but you get the point. With two littles who are boycotting nap time and believe the latest trend to be waking up for the day at 4:30 AM and being a melt down mess by 8:30 AM, on top of that exhausting mess of a schedule I'm rounding the corner to the 3rd trimester and feel worn out and winded after sitting up in bed first thing in the morning.
I'm not complaining, who am I kidding, I'm definitely complaining!
As difficult as life with a 2 year old and 12 month old and one in utero is {can I just add that in the last 27 months only 13 months have I not been pregnant, and that's split into a 6 month and a 7 month period}, we do realize this is a season and it won't last or be at this pace forever. And not only that but this, all of this, it's God's best for us!!
He knew it would happen. He knew we couldn't handle it, not with out Him. That's His plan all along and this is the life He has given us. So we might complain and make sarcastic comments about the most difficult things we face right now. We probably will find ourselves day dreaming of a different season, past or future, but when we remember why we are here and Who led us to this place and we remember this is the life He chose for us there is no way we can't be glad in our hearts and praise Him for all of this.
This life He has given us. Our Life with the Littles.
3 comments:
To say, I know how you feel, is an understatement. I was getting ready to write a similar post. From July 2005, I have been pregnant or breastfeeding for all but 11 months, split into a six month and then five month break. Today is one of those days where I am counting down til bedtime and they just ate lunch. But you're right, it's part of a bigger plan and it just take it hour by hour. Most days are good but last night I was up with my almost 13mos old NINE TIMES because she wanted to nurse. I'm exhausted, the boys have colds and we aren't even at our house. Hoping things get easier for both of us!
Um, Sweetie...would it be all right...um...if I remind you to...um...go back and read this blog now and again?...I LOVE YOU, HONEY! (But this is an excellent post and everything you say is so true... it was definitely God's plan for you to have your beautiful children and He wants you to rely on HIM completely!) You are awesome parents...relax, God's in charge!
I feel for you... and appreciate your honesty because in just a few months I will have a better picture of your life. AND I am preparing myself even now to be pregnant again sooner rather than later because I bet God does that to us, too. :-) There are some days with Jeremiah and being 31 weeks pregnant that I have to remind myself of a couple of things- God has called me to this... would I really, seriously, want anything else? NO! And I also hear older women talk about missing the baby and toddler stage... and I realize when they are all grown up I will miss it, too. Geez, getting teary just writing that! Hang in there!!!
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